The AppleBeloved

Synaesthesia, Imagination, Asperger's Syndrome.

It may seem too early to claim so, but this is my beginning of everything.
I know it is this time, and thus, it shall be.

It may seem too early to claim so, but this is my beginning of everything.
I know it is this time, and thus, it shall be.

Imitation Game wins Toronto top prize »

Imitation Game wins Toronto top prize. (applause)

Much expected, but I hadn’t realise that Alan Turing was gay until today. And that’s not to say it’s a bad thing. It’s only another affirmation of the genius of minorities. This article claims that it is truthfully a prize for congratulating the “different”.

Is truth of little value today?

Science: Medicine, Research, Technology
2. In the field of science, truth remains highly value for its applicability and thus, potential to improve quality of life.
-Scientific Fraud
-Implications
-Measures (counter & deter)
-Link (interest value … Talk about “I am Legend” … Walking dead)


Socio-economics: The Age of a Commercial Society (C.A. Mace)
3. With globalisation and rising affluence that drives economic progress worldwide, the past focus on breeding morality gradually morphs into the need for “market sense”.
-Interviews/Presentation for jobs/places at school (social marketability)
-Social Intelligence & Darwinism (marred the need for honesty if it guarantees better prospects) becomes Business-minded
-Degrading morality in the world? Not always: We can practise the Harm’s Principle in our regulation of truth

Crime/Social: Justice will be served
4. As Dostoevsky writes, “No man ever acts from a single motive”. It is once again naive to believe that a man telling the truth is (ironically) singularly bent on being morally good.
- Mother Theresa and collaboration with media to set up image of “public good”.
- Voluntary organisation frauds, Embezzlement of funds schemes
-“self-defense” arguments for employing firearms - Oscar pistorius
- similarly, not all crimes are dotted with lies: James Richardson 21 years in prison framed by authorities for murder of his own 7 children , Robert Dewey 17 yrs in prison for strangulation of 19 yr old woman in Colorado.

Conclusion: It is valuable, with regulation. Harmful truth > Harmless lie.
Harmful truth = Harmful lie ?

Is the truth of little value today?

Politically Speaking
The value of truth is seemingly obscure in the political realm. We like to think that the best governments are those which are free from deceit, somewhat perceiving deception as a form of corruption. As the “The Chicago Monitor” (an online news site that serves to provide critical perspectives) explains, the leaks of National Security Agency (NSA) and US military confidential documents by Edward Snowden and Private Manning respectively are seen as “heroic acts” in this young generation of Americans and countless youths worldwide. By doing so, they see themselves as “loyal patriots” of the American/New-Age Ideals (Liberty, Democracy, Individual Rights), even at the expense of a heightened vulnera to “cyber attacks” whether from other countries or terrorist groups e.g. Al-Qaeda. The increasing support for these whistleblowers from youths (mostly through social media platforms e.g. Twitter, Facebook as well as organisations like ‘Whistleblowers against Fraud’) further exemplifies this new age ideology of “Truth”. Yet it is much too naive to assume that the truth is always beneficial to society. Needless to say, it is socially desirable for the public to be aware of the intentions of our government, but the truth is hardly ever communicated concisely. More than often, it is subjected to multiple interpretations. The case of the 1950 Maria Hertogh Riots in Singapore which saw the deaths of 18 people and injured 173 are a perfect representation of the implications of revealing the unnecessary truth. The current media censorship policy thus stands on firm ground. The lives of those who died in the conflict might have been unnecessary with socially responsible revelations of the truth. It is in my opinion that the obscuring of truth serves a higher function than the honourable revelation of it - it protects Greater Good - for the public generally perceives things in self-interest (The “i have the right to know the truth” demand does not put into consideration the weakening of national security as a whole) where a functional government perceives what maximizes societal welfare. As we grow older, we are able to understand why our parents hide certain things from us. In the same way, it takes maturity from formal education to help us understand why the truth is subjected to obscurity in the political realm. There are greater priorities like national defence that has to be placed before maintaining the “social ideal” of sticking by truth.

The morbid lifestyle of corn-haters. Let spaceships take them away!

The morbid lifestyle of corn-haters. Let spaceships take them away!

I started questioning my sexuality again and thus i decided that i ought to do 10 online tests to figure out once and for all.

Apparently, I’m 60% asexual, 20% hermaphrodite (that’s biologically incorrect already) and 20% pansexual.

One thing’s certain: I know I’m not straight, because I’m never sincere about being straight somehow.

I guess I have got to accept it and stop trying to test out my feelings for either gender. I’m just not into anyone and that’s that. Truthfully, it’s a bit boring, I suppose. As I watch my friends discuss their crushes eagerly, who’s hot and who’s not, I am inclined to at least pretend that I am able to understand them. I often fake this great enthusiasm in discussing good-looking people with those who prioritise on them, in order to get into the good with them. It’s pretentious, I know, but i have this fear that if I do not do so, they might figure out I’m different and thus ostracise me again. The cycle repeats for every institution I attend, unless I find some general way to fit in. And this is seemingly the easiest way. The factor that most of the population is interested in.

Also, I kind of want to know how the genuine feelings of attraction feels like, but there’s nothing but a plain androgynous appreciation for the same homologous structures that exist in all animals and plants and objects and drawings. For example, sometimes I love my ankles. Sometimes, I like my ears, or my feet. I like drawing long hands and long bones. After painting all these bright flickers of interest, I feel no more interest. Then I recognise that these interests are just art musings. It’s the same old feeling when I get all worked up about the marvellous church at QingDao island. Or the wicked infrastructure of the roof at the Bugis junction mall. I get upset. There’s nothing exciting about these infatuations. No one else cares nor wants to talk about them, but myself.

The only time my brain perks up is when I’m going psychodelic in my artwork, my impressionisms, such that I sort of forget about my body functions like needing to eat or sleep. The same effect can also be achieved through reading insanely thought-provoking articles like that of noetic science and revelations in the history of angels. And writing poems, they are blessedly relieving for the erratic flux of thoughts my brain rapidly injects into my consciousness.

I have to accept myself now. I think I am unable to live pretending all the time. I tire myself with all this mustering of enthusiasm to babble about a topic that doesn’t even stimulate a single neuron in my mind. In this sense, I need to embrace my asexuality wholeheartedly and stop looking for hopeful possibilities that maybe I’m just bisexual or pansexual or transsexual. I am none of those.

I am merely asexual, and that’s boring but it’s still me. I’m boring in this one aspect. I can be interesting anywhere else, so don’t be disappointed. Ah, yes.

Now get on with life.

- Hunter S. Thompson

P.S. This quote hypes me up for an intensive training for every single skill I want to achieve. From dancing, running to memorizing everything in the textbooks to playing chess every single spare second I’ve got (e.g. in the car, toilet, during dinner), this has been my fundamental anthem of life.

- Hunter S. Thompson

P.S. This quote hypes me up for an intensive training for every single skill I want to achieve. From dancing, running to memorizing everything in the textbooks to playing chess every single spare second I’ve got (e.g. in the car, toilet, during dinner), this has been my fundamental anthem of life.

My days are spent on retrieving memories to generate the full picture, and i see how well this is going.

Hopefully, my efforts will pay off the price of procrastination throughout the two years of life in Meridian. By procrastination, I really meant reading a huge collection of classical treasures like The Adventures of Tom Sawyer and Huckleberry Finn and The Pickwick Papers and pursuing Lucretius’s insight in De Rerum Natura to merge with the solid Darwin’s Evolution theory (i also tried Herbert Spencer’s social Darwinism but it was quite expensive and the local libraries did not house it) and all that thick wonders of philosophical brilliance to steer myself towards future successes.

Let’s focus our attention right now to the right things and progress towards the field of neuroscience and philosophy.

Maybe then I’ll be able to find solid evidence for the public to invest in my ideals of noetics being far more than pseudoscience, but a plausible solution to our immortality as mankind. It takes a dreamer to change the lives of a great many around the world. A person like Nikola Tesla, Albert Einstein, Charles Darwin (my love), Vincent Van Gogh, Michelangelo (darling!) and naturally, Steve Jobs (though I don’t quite like the Apple iPhone).

I wonder if Graham Young would have been much better off if he didn’t dabble in the darker aspects of humanity- death as a desire. That’s the worse way to live (paradoxically).

Apparently, asexuality is a syndrome that is largely intellectually-induced.

But I believe it’s both genetic (from my family and relatives) and intellectually-induced.

I guess I was kind of straight back then when I was younger, but then my obsession  with art and angels amplified massively over the years of puberty that it now consumes my entire brain and idle thoughts. There is a lack of interest in anything else that cannot form an attachment with these subjects.

Mystery debunked.

Hmm, I’ve taken to posting queer youtube videos on my account.

Hmm, I’ve taken to posting queer youtube videos on my account.